there are a lot of things i will never understand about God, nor will i ever pretend to understand. why he loves me and gives me so much grace is one of them. i’ve messed up so many times, broken so many promises i made to him, and thrown his love back in his face so often it’s amazing he hasn’t given up on me.
he bore the weight of MY sin on the cross. it was MY sin pressing down on him in the garden that made him sweat great drops of blood. it was because of MY sin that he died. and in spite of all that, he went to hell for ME so i wouldn’t have to go. because he loves me. because he’s GOOD. his grace amazes me. his love overwhelms me.
i don’t know what to do with a love like that. i don’t know how to be a love like that.
one thing i do know. i want to experience a love like that. i want to know the freedom of his love and grace. to know what it means to be loved so freely and passionately just the way i am. no expectations. no pretending. just being loved because he made me and i am perfect just the way i am. i want to have the confidence that comes with knowing that love. to burn with the hope of it. to revel in the joy of it . to cry in the unworthiness of it. to bask in its glow.
but most importantly, to burn with love for my Jesus and others because of it.
…my chains are gone, i’ve been set free, my God, my Savior has ransomed me, and like a flood his mercy rains…unending love…amazing grace…
